My
husband became part of the deliverance ministry many years ago.
For years the family I was born into told me that I should stay
far away from deliverance because "it is dabbling with
the devil and bringing condemnation on my children." I
was fearful that they were right. I thought that if anything
bad happened to my kids it would be my fault because I didn't
listen to my Christian parents.
Finally, I agreed to talk with Paul and Alma.
They told me that Christians were not supposed to be depressed.
I had never heard that before. I had been on Prozac for 5 1/2
years for suicidal depression. Many members of my family were
on anti-depressants, so I never questioned that this was wrong.
Well one night at a deliverance team meeting, my husband stood
behind me, encouraging me to allow Ed to pray over me. That
night I was delivered from depression. I went home and threw
my Prozac away. I had found freedom like I had never known before.
I couldn't stop smiling. I was able to pray again. It was great!
As the weeks passed, I felt the depression
creep back into my life. How could this be? Hadn't I been
delivered? Yes, I had, but the strongholds were still there.
I never broke the legal rights Satan had over me. I returned
to a Tuesday night deliverance meeting. As Paul began the
mass deliverance, my whole body began to shake. Things I hadn't
thought about in years were coming back to my mind. When Paul
asked if anyone needed more help, I shot out of my seat to
the front.
Ed and Donna asked me some questions about
what seemed to be bothering
me. The answers were anger and depression. With further investigation
into my past, we discovered that I had never forgiven my older
brother for committing suicide and leaving me with a terrible
secret of incest. That night I forgave him and Satan's legal
right was broken. Guilt, anger, depression, suicide, and self-hate
were destroying my life. That night they had to leave. I am
still finding unforgiveness in my life that I am confessing
as God reveals it to me. I am combing through my past to find
any areas that Satan may claim as his own. God is such a loving
God! He has drawn me close to Him each day. He is revealing
a
plan for my life and is asking me to step out in faith to
meet Him.
My husband says he has a new wife. I know
he does. I finally feel the joy of the Lord and know the freedom
of living in His will. Satan never wanted this to happen to
me and used my Christian family to stop it. He is still using
them to pull me back. But I now have the strength of the Lord
fighting the battles. What peace there is in knowing that
God has full charge over your life! Our God is so awesome!
Thank you for letting me share some of the
wonderful things God has done
recently in my life. I can't stop praising His wonderful name! |
